So now that 2013 has begun, I’d very much like to try to
make some improvements in my life. I wouldn’t say that this is a “new year –
new me” year, but a start on something positive. I am determined to make this
year even better than 2012 as, looking back, 2012 was quite a good year for
myself. I’m not too great with New Year’s resolutions, however this year I’m
determined to at least give it a go. My New Year’s resolutions aren’t you’re
average “cut down on chocolate”, “exercise at least twice a week”, but more of
things that I feel I can improve on to make my life much easier for myself
rather than a struggle.
Have more motivation!
Looking back, 2012 was a productive year in exam preparation terms, however I feel that I could have pushed myself much more and could have made even bigger achievements that I did. I have to admit, my interest in my school work lacked A LOT of motivation and determination to get it all finished and get the grade I felt particularly pleased about. I mean, don’t get me wrong, I was very pleased with my grades, however I feel I could have done better and now is the time to start!
Don’t other think things!
I’ve been told numerous times by numerous people, “Hannah,
you other think things way too much!” I never really took any notice of this as
I just thought “well that’s how I am…” But due to the effect it has on me
during exams I think now is the time to improve on this. I’d like to feel more
relaxed about things, no matter how stressful something may be, I should just
take a deep breath and get on with it and use my initiative. I think what
started this off was the fact that when I was younger I’d always have an answer
completely different to everyone else and was never confident enough to admit
it. And if I’m honest, I really do hate being wrong.
Gradually
step out of my comfort zone
I’m a person who likes to keep themselves to themselves
and I’m sure, in a way, this is a good thing. However since I recently turned
16, after looking back on my teenage years I feel I’ve missed out on really
exciting things. I’m the type of person who chickens out going on a
roller coaster when I get to the front of the queue because I can’t contain my
nerves. And I’m also that person who goes to an exam like a bag of nerves… It’s
not that I’m afraid of doing badly; it’s just the thought of sitting in a hall
with numerous teachers looking at me. However during this year I’d like to
change this and gradually feel confident in participating in things that I
wouldn’t normally do.
Accept myself
for who I am
My life revolves around worrying, it’s all I ever do
nowadays compared to my younger self when I used to do whatever and ignore the
bad remarks from others. However I remember when I was 8 years old and one of
my best friends said horrible things about my weight. I was very thin then, and
smaller than all of my friends. I never really understood what they meant by
calling me “skinny”, however when I told my Mum and Dad they explained to me
that they were “just jealous”, but I couldn’t quite comprehend why somebody would
try to insult me but feel envious over
me at the same time. However as I got older I began to understand more. My
younger self has made me the person I am today, in that I don’t take notice of
the negative comments and instead show that individual who finds it appropriate
to say such things that comments like that CAN hurt.
