London Adventures!

Recently I took a 5 day trip with my parents to London which has put a perfect end to my time off from Sixth Form. I've been previously, however, being so young I cannot remember barely anything and therefore this was the perfect opportunity for me and my parents to be proper tourists and see all the sights in London! It's such an incredibly beautiful city and I was extremely excited about this trip, so much so I'd go back almost instantly. Here are some pictures of my trip!

Trafalgar Square

                                                                                 
                                       

Madame Tussauds

London Eye - River Thames 

Big Ben - Westminster

Picadilly Circus 

London Tower Bridge

St Paul's Cathedral 

Buckingham Palace

Time Away

Recently I took some well needed time away with my Parents to revisit Cornwall for the week. I've visited Cornwall twice, maybe three times, before but I always find it such a lovely place to go if you want to stay within the UK. After all the exam stress around 2 months ago, a holiday would have been much more ideal at that point but I can honestly say I feel much more rejuvenated and ready to face my results this upcoming week. 

Due to my anxieties going away from home can be quite a struggle however this time I managed well, even though a lot of the time I spent thinking of coming home but nevertheless I did really enjoy my time away and was very much so grateful for it. We spent a lot of the week going on well needed walks and visiting the lovely towns nearby. The majority of times I go away I seem to come back to a lot of things that quite literally overwhelm me and lead me to spending the majority of my summer holidays slumping around the house because I can't find the energy to get out and get things sorted for myself. However even though I came home to a lot of things pulling me down like thoughts of University and AS results day, I seemed to have managed just fine and began to pick myself up again very quickly by getting back into those well needed walks and important catch-ups with friends. 

I also find myself before a holiday putting a long playlist together of songs that I most probably won't ever listen to again after my holiday but feel I'll have a big urge to listen to when away. And as always I think it's one of the best things I do to prepare myself for time away as it allows me to remember those little walks away by the sea or those long drives at ridiculous times in the morning by just re listening to the songs and reliving those small but ever so nice moments that are quite possibly my favourites. But maybe that should be a blog post of it's own...?

Anyway, here are some pictures of my trip!

Fowey Harbour

Fowey Town

Padstow

  

Realisation

So my exams start very shortly and so I thought a very cliché blog post about my favourite chum would help me feel slightly better about it all! I've been friends with Megan since I was around 10 and have been ever since. Over the past 7 and a half years we've come to realise that we're incredibly alike, whether that's because we spend a ridiculous amount of time together or not I'm not so sure, but it's definitely helped us see a lot of things through together. Together we've gone through extreme lows and incredible highs that have made us the pair that we are today (oh how cheesy!!). I feel that we all go through a period where we want things we can't have or we want to do things we can't do that we forget all about what we've had all along and sometimes it's just nice to sit and think about everything you do have: family, friends, pets, bits and bob, all the little things you keep and say you'll look over but never do. I feel that these things make us who we are and keep us on track to finding out more about ourselves that we should know! Hence why I've taken time out to realise what's in front of me, someone who's definitely played a bit role in helping me through all my highs and lows and vice versa. She's been a lovely friend to me all these years and I'm incredibly greatful.
 THANKS MEG! X 

My Year So Far...

A month has almost past now of 2014 and already I feel I have had a rather strange start to the year, full of many highs and lows! It's rather daunting how much can actually happen in the space of a month, in my case, it's rather daunting how many times I can be happy and sad in the space of a month. I've spent such a tiny amount of January with my friends due to Sixth Form however I feel that the time I've actually spent with them has been rather precious in that it's made me not take my friends for granted. Even if I'm just sat having lunch with them at school or just a walk home with them, I never take these moments for granted just because I know one day I won't see them as much as I do now or even at all (now that is a very scary thought).

I've already thought a lot about my future and what I want to do after Sixth Form but I still seem to be within the same never ending hoop of which I can't seem to find the end of. I think I'll always find answering the question of "what do you want to do when you're older?" extremely hard, even when I've found a job because I'll always question my choices. Even now I question my A-Level choices when I feel I'm getting nowhere with them but I have to keep telling myself that the more work and effort I put in with them now, the better I'll feel when they're done because I know that if I've done my best then what else can I do? The thought of University is also a scary thought and of course I also don't have a clue what I want to do! Sometimes it's just good to 'go with the flow' and see where life takes you rather to be panicking about the future. Who knows, the answer may just come along some day and I may just know exactly what I want to do in the future, but for now, I'm happy to keep plodding along and waiting for the time to come!

Looking back...

I may just be the latest person with a blog post of 2013 however I've been just a little busy (and lazy). But anyway, I've decided now is the right time to actually think about this past year and just share what I got up to!

Year 11 - English 

My lovelies receiving our GCSEs 

My year started as one of those years where you take a look at the position you're in and think "I have the loveliest friends and the greatest plans for this year". But, like many people, those plans didn't really go as well as I'd hoped and instead my year was a rather surprising one for me in terms of the things that were thrown my way. First all of, 2013 was the last year of my GCSEs, one of which helped me to realise just how determined I can be when I know what I want. If it wasn't for this realisation I wouldn't have gained the lovely set of results I got in the summer, of which I was very very pleased with!

Throughout the year my friendship group changed and I came to terms with the person that I actually am. I've realised that I don't actually stand for much when it comes to somebody I don't particularly like. From this I've began to make changes in my life for the good, of which has helped me to make the lovely friends I know now and am grateful to have met. I spent a lot of the year worrying about what particular people thought of me and now I've come to terms with the fact that not everybody likes you and you will always come across people that won't like you and won't give you a chance. And if they're not willing to give you a chance then why try? Through this I have allowed myself to get closer to my 'little' group of friends and throughout the year made some lovely memories. One of which being a spontaneous trip to the seaside of which was truly hilarious and unforgettable; another being prom, of which all looked b-e-a-uuuutiful!

Prom

Cleethorpes

2013 was also the beginning of my A-Levels and of course joining Sixth Form. I wasn't so sure at first on the thought of speaking to different people however this soon changed. Now I find myself talking to such lovely people whom I never thought I'd find myself speaking to and I'm so so grateful to know each and every one of them. The year showed me just how stressed I can get however I'm still 'plodding' through and I'm still alive (thankfully!!!). I've become so much more confident and I honestly never thought I'd actually say such a thing last year.

Abigail's 17th 

Early September - Jakeycakes!

And lastly, it was the year that I turned 17. Now I know for sure that turning 17 doesn't make you feel any different, however I feel as though from last year I have most certainly grown up and matured (just a little). I've begun to step out of my comfort-zone a lot more and I've definitely tried to do things I wouldn't normally do. I mean... I can't even catch a bus by myself I'm that bad!! I may not have caught a bus by myself yet but I'm most certainly working on my anxiety and paranoia. Very recently I took my mock exams for my AS exams. Now normally I'd have a panic attack just before going into the hall, however through that week I controlled this and seem to be growing out of it. And maybe, just maybe, I might just get through a set of exams without a trace of panic.

Prom!