My Year So Far...

A month has almost past now of 2014 and already I feel I have had a rather strange start to the year, full of many highs and lows! It's rather daunting how much can actually happen in the space of a month, in my case, it's rather daunting how many times I can be happy and sad in the space of a month. I've spent such a tiny amount of January with my friends due to Sixth Form however I feel that the time I've actually spent with them has been rather precious in that it's made me not take my friends for granted. Even if I'm just sat having lunch with them at school or just a walk home with them, I never take these moments for granted just because I know one day I won't see them as much as I do now or even at all (now that is a very scary thought).

I've already thought a lot about my future and what I want to do after Sixth Form but I still seem to be within the same never ending hoop of which I can't seem to find the end of. I think I'll always find answering the question of "what do you want to do when you're older?" extremely hard, even when I've found a job because I'll always question my choices. Even now I question my A-Level choices when I feel I'm getting nowhere with them but I have to keep telling myself that the more work and effort I put in with them now, the better I'll feel when they're done because I know that if I've done my best then what else can I do? The thought of University is also a scary thought and of course I also don't have a clue what I want to do! Sometimes it's just good to 'go with the flow' and see where life takes you rather to be panicking about the future. Who knows, the answer may just come along some day and I may just know exactly what I want to do in the future, but for now, I'm happy to keep plodding along and waiting for the time to come!

Looking back...

I may just be the latest person with a blog post of 2013 however I've been just a little busy (and lazy). But anyway, I've decided now is the right time to actually think about this past year and just share what I got up to!

Year 11 - English 

My lovelies receiving our GCSEs 

My year started as one of those years where you take a look at the position you're in and think "I have the loveliest friends and the greatest plans for this year". But, like many people, those plans didn't really go as well as I'd hoped and instead my year was a rather surprising one for me in terms of the things that were thrown my way. First all of, 2013 was the last year of my GCSEs, one of which helped me to realise just how determined I can be when I know what I want. If it wasn't for this realisation I wouldn't have gained the lovely set of results I got in the summer, of which I was very very pleased with!

Throughout the year my friendship group changed and I came to terms with the person that I actually am. I've realised that I don't actually stand for much when it comes to somebody I don't particularly like. From this I've began to make changes in my life for the good, of which has helped me to make the lovely friends I know now and am grateful to have met. I spent a lot of the year worrying about what particular people thought of me and now I've come to terms with the fact that not everybody likes you and you will always come across people that won't like you and won't give you a chance. And if they're not willing to give you a chance then why try? Through this I have allowed myself to get closer to my 'little' group of friends and throughout the year made some lovely memories. One of which being a spontaneous trip to the seaside of which was truly hilarious and unforgettable; another being prom, of which all looked b-e-a-uuuutiful!

Prom

Cleethorpes

2013 was also the beginning of my A-Levels and of course joining Sixth Form. I wasn't so sure at first on the thought of speaking to different people however this soon changed. Now I find myself talking to such lovely people whom I never thought I'd find myself speaking to and I'm so so grateful to know each and every one of them. The year showed me just how stressed I can get however I'm still 'plodding' through and I'm still alive (thankfully!!!). I've become so much more confident and I honestly never thought I'd actually say such a thing last year.

Abigail's 17th 

Early September - Jakeycakes!

And lastly, it was the year that I turned 17. Now I know for sure that turning 17 doesn't make you feel any different, however I feel as though from last year I have most certainly grown up and matured (just a little). I've begun to step out of my comfort-zone a lot more and I've definitely tried to do things I wouldn't normally do. I mean... I can't even catch a bus by myself I'm that bad!! I may not have caught a bus by myself yet but I'm most certainly working on my anxiety and paranoia. Very recently I took my mock exams for my AS exams. Now normally I'd have a panic attack just before going into the hall, however through that week I controlled this and seem to be growing out of it. And maybe, just maybe, I might just get through a set of exams without a trace of panic.

Prom!